Quote

"This journey is long and draining. Be Mindful of your self care and your own truth."

Very well said, by a great therapist that I know.

Update

We are back on the crazy train again...
Not sure we ever really got off of it...
Same story, different day...
Trying to "help" without enabling...
We know the drill, but still...

Prayers always appreciated!

Peace! I feel peace....

I came to my blog today thinking I should update, and I have a "Prayer For Today" widget at the top- here's what it said:

"Lord, may I remember that a setback does not mean utter defeat, but a mere retreat to store up strength and win the battle!" ~ My Prayer For Today

I just love it. Applies to both my son and myself as we each continue on these journeys we call life! I think the reason this prayer caught my attention is that it's been my prayer for my son this time around (and forever) that should he relapse-he seeks the help he needs instead of his usual pattern of falling deeper into the pit. For myself, if I feel old habits and anxieties start to creep in, I know what to do to get myself back on track of healthy thinking.

My son has been home for 3 weeks now, and doing really well. Things feel different this time. His actions are different. It is so darn awesome to be around him when he's sober! I have no false hopes or expectations, I live my life one day at a time. I'm so thankful for my time spent in the rooms of Nar-Anon Family Groups, ever grateful for my faith in God.

So, we will keep on keepin' on!
Blessings to all!

This will be quick

Almost 3 months since my last post?! Unbelievable...

Not much to report. Life is good!

Son has about a month and a half left in jail. His plan as of now is outpatient, meetings and therapy. I think I mentioned before that he will have a PO this time, something he's never had before. He wants to work with my husband again, not sure if that will happen or not. Not sure where he will live yet. I know many will say he shouldn't live with us (I am one of those "many") but I do believe there is a fine line between enabling and supporting. Oh well, enough of that, I want to enjoy my last month and half before I have to make hard decisions!

Love, Hugs & Prayers to ALL of you reading!

Sentencing Next Month

At last Wednesday's court date (the one we couldn't stay for) 5 out of the 6 charges were dropped- so I think it will be a year in County Jail. But we won't know for sure until April 13th- his next court date. He called the other night and said the day he gets out of jail he'd like to go straight to the airport and head out of state, to where we have family (we've offered in the past for him to go to rehab back there). This is the first time he's mentioned it on his own- maybe he's finally realizing he can't keep going back to the same playground if he truly wants to stay clean. Don't know if he'd even be allowed to go to out of state rehab, but I'm glad he's even considering it.

Court

I did go to my son's court date yesterday, on my lunch hour. But, we didn't get to hear/see his case. They did one case and then took a break. We waited for 20 minutes, then I had to get back to work. But, mission accomplished for me- I was able to see my son and he was able to see his mom and dad show up for him...

As far as I know his sentencing is tomorrow, but I can't go to that as it's in the morning. Not sure if hubby will go or not. I will be praying for God's will...

Court tomorrow

I talked to my son this evening- was nice to hear his voice, he sounds good. My husband visited him over the weekend, I was out of town.

Public Defender visited son today and she said absolute worst case is that he gets 3 years in prison. Or, he might get 1 year in County Jail and 3-5 years probation. He's not eligible for court ordered rehab or drug court, due to his 3 thefts over the 3 years. He's already served jail time for past 2 thefts, so I'm not sure how all that works...

I don't know what will happen tomorrow, but I don't think he's sentenced until his Friday court date. Not sure if I will go tomorrow or not. I'm finding that I'm a bit torn between letting him deal with all this on his own, or showing up for support.

I'll sleep on it and decide in the morning...